Gear Grandfather,
Although we met due to sad circumstances I do genuinely feel that there was a lot of caring and love present in the short three days that I could come for.
With all my love, your granddaughter
05/02/2014
Back To Reality
After all this time feeling so... Well, FEELING SO! I'm trying to turn that leaf back and get things done efficiently but most importantly fearlessly. Because most importantly one cannot become paralyzed in a new situation. Just imagine how many days I have lost feeling insecure, vulnerable, frail, ugly and so so young. And all of these are true and false at the same time because they have no relevance. It does not matter if I were frail and ugly, what matters is what I do despite of my hindrances. Because everyone has hindrances be it physical or mental. And yet even at this moment earth is moving through space.
Time is but an illusion created by the movement of electromagnetic currents distorted by mass.
Peace out.
Time is but an illusion created by the movement of electromagnetic currents distorted by mass.
Peace out.
20/01/2014
Unexpected Changes
My grandparents were in a fatal car accident. My grandmother died earlier today and my grandfather is in intensive care as I write this. He broke seven ribs.
I wanted to show you a picture of them, but I cannot find one. I thought I had many, yet I have none.
I'm going home to Finland next week to deal with my rental agreement. Unfortunately I have to cancel most of my appointments for that weekend. I'm sure you will understand why.
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She battled cancer for over 30 years to be killed by a truck running a red light.
Stay safe <3
PS: _1_, _2_, _3_, _4_, _5_, _6_, _7_ and _8_.
I wanted to show you a picture of them, but I cannot find one. I thought I had many, yet I have none.
I'm going home to Finland next week to deal with my rental agreement. Unfortunately I have to cancel most of my appointments for that weekend. I'm sure you will understand why.
-
She battled cancer for over 30 years to be killed by a truck running a red light.
Stay safe <3
PS: _1_, _2_, _3_, _4_, _5_, _6_, _7_ and _8_.
05/01/2014
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08/12/2013
How My Weekends Pan Out
Your Playlist
Friday after work:
Sudden urge to get a life! Maybe I'll go to the movies? Oh, movies starts at eight and it's now six... Shopping will tide me over! I need a beret. What a coat! So beautiful.. So cheap! Yes. No. Yes! No. YES! I'll go for it. What a surprise, a beret that actually fits me of the shelf. Skip the movie out of money spending guilt, binge on GG at home. Eat fried fish fingers and onions on a bed of rice
Saturday:
Slept 12 hours. Wake up at 11 AM. Feel so good! Should do something, go out. There's a Finnish People Living in London Christmas Party tonight. Totally want to go there! I have no ticket. I'll ask the organizer to add me on the list! I'm on the list, so VIP. Aha, don't you know it! Clean my room. Landlord has a visitor, have to act hospitable. "Act normal!" fail miserably. Apparently I'm way too mature for my age. This sucks. Shit, I'm late for the party! Makeup, clothing (the cheap black dress that looks divine but was bought from Halpahalli) and I'm off. Watch Youtube videos on bus. Used up my monthly internet allowance (shit), arrive. Top up Oyster card for smooth return trip/Monday. Can't find the entrance, feel morbidly out of place. Get in, crowded with strangers talking Finnish. MY PEOPLE! Start talking to two nice girls (Lotta and Sanna). Spend the evening with them and trying to make eye contact with a very pretty blond guy (I think he wasn't into my short hair...). Get home at 1 AM, moderately drunk.
Sunday:
Slept 12 hours. Wake up at 1 PM. Feel so good! Should do something, go out. Maybe not, want to just stay in. Eat porridge, as always. Hmm, maybe I should go explore Dulwich. THE SUN IS SETTING! Run to the park. Take picture using weird settings. Come home, watch TED. Landlord is making Sunday Roast. How very English.
I hope this shed some light on the intimate workings of my solitary mind. How do you spend your weekend?
Friday after work:
Sudden urge to get a life! Maybe I'll go to the movies? Oh, movies starts at eight and it's now six... Shopping will tide me over! I need a beret. What a coat! So beautiful.. So cheap! Yes. No. Yes! No. YES! I'll go for it. What a surprise, a beret that actually fits me of the shelf. Skip the movie out of money spending guilt, binge on GG at home. Eat fried fish fingers and onions on a bed of rice
Saturday:
Slept 12 hours. Wake up at 11 AM. Feel so good! Should do something, go out. There's a Finnish People Living in London Christmas Party tonight. Totally want to go there! I have no ticket. I'll ask the organizer to add me on the list! I'm on the list, so VIP. Aha, don't you know it! Clean my room. Landlord has a visitor, have to act hospitable. "Act normal!" fail miserably. Apparently I'm way too mature for my age. This sucks. Shit, I'm late for the party! Makeup, clothing (the cheap black dress that looks divine but was bought from Halpahalli) and I'm off. Watch Youtube videos on bus. Used up my monthly internet allowance (shit), arrive. Top up Oyster card for smooth return trip/Monday. Can't find the entrance, feel morbidly out of place. Get in, crowded with strangers talking Finnish. MY PEOPLE! Start talking to two nice girls (Lotta and Sanna). Spend the evening with them and trying to make eye contact with a very pretty blond guy (I think he wasn't into my short hair...). Get home at 1 AM, moderately drunk.
Sunday:
Slept 12 hours. Wake up at 1 PM. Feel so good! Should do something, go out. Maybe not, want to just stay in. Eat porridge, as always. Hmm, maybe I should go explore Dulwich. THE SUN IS SETTING! Run to the park. Take picture using weird settings. Come home, watch TED. Landlord is making Sunday Roast. How very English.
I hope this shed some light on the intimate workings of my solitary mind. How do you spend your weekend?
17/11/2013
09/11/2013
03/11/2013
5/3
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1. Cut my hair. My appearance went from a tired 6 to a solid 7, so with normal make up and some outfit coordination we can even speak of an average 8. Pushing on 9 with increased mirror time. Single ≠ sad look!
2. Made lunch for Monday/Tuesday
3. Left the house on Friday, Saturday and Sunday
4. Went shopping (did not buy anything though)
5. Had fun, feeling generally better
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1. Need to organize my new room with old stuff
2. Need to start doing exercise. Age/Bum=Hotness, so even though my bum would be great on an older woman, now I'm competing with 20 somethings. It's sad really. I'd do so much better in the 40 something league. No offence.
3. I'm homesick. I miss my friends and family. Having people over. A social life which I would hide from to my best ability. Funny how things change.
Pasta for the workaholics
MM
PS. I MISS MY WINTER COATS AND DRESSES AND JUMPERS AND ALL THAT WOOL AND THE BERETS!
Oh my, I'm almost tearing up thinking about it.
1. Cut my hair. My appearance went from a tired 6 to a solid 7, so with normal make up and some outfit coordination we can even speak of an average 8. Pushing on 9 with increased mirror time. Single ≠ sad look!
2. Made lunch for Monday/Tuesday
3. Left the house on Friday, Saturday and Sunday
4. Went shopping (did not buy anything though)
5. Had fun, feeling generally better
-
1. Need to organize my new room with old stuff
2. Need to start doing exercise. Age/Bum=Hotness, so even though my bum would be great on an older woman, now I'm competing with 20 somethings. It's sad really. I'd do so much better in the 40 something league. No offence.
3. I'm homesick. I miss my friends and family. Having people over. A social life which I would hide from to my best ability. Funny how things change.
Pasta for the workaholics
MM
PS. I MISS MY WINTER COATS AND DRESSES AND JUMPERS AND ALL THAT WOOL AND THE BERETS!
Oh my, I'm almost tearing up thinking about it.
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