A Friend in Need

I have a confession.

The years of loneliness are my own doing. How sad is that, but so true. I invested my time wrong. I should have called you, I should have made an effort. I should have said no to the situations that clearly did not benefit me. And yet blinded by my own intentions I lost site of my own values. What a funny word, values.

It will take time, but I will make you:
1. Think it's nice to spend time with me
2. Remember why we were friends
3. Trust that I'm not just going to vanish again (just because I suddenly moved abroad) (or date a guy) (or have a social life)
4. Want to be friends with me again

So beware. I might just call you. Or you can help me out by calling me (if I would get a pennie every time someone Skypes with me on loudspeaker while snuggling with their boyfriend...) (Was I like that really?)

Just do it. I will want to talk to you none the less. Maybe I'll even get to know your boyfriend.

Good night for all you naughty people

What is in a name?

I found this ridiculously entertaining piece of information regarding the meaning of my name:

Your first name, Mila, creates an independent, forthright, practical nature. 

You desire to work on your own or to occupy positions of authority where you have opportunities to organize an area of interest and where your decisions are heeded.

You want to be successful financially and have an interest in investments and stocks.

Being consistent and stable in your nature, you are decisive, capable, and efficient, though not always tactful in expressing your opinions.

Your appreciation of art and music is focused around how to make these activities into viable financial opportunities.

At times, you create misunderstandings with others as it is not easy for you to be diplomatic.

Health problems centre in the head affecting the eyes, ears, sinuses, or teeth.

Also, tension could afflict the female generative organs.

If you agree, please let me know ;)

I hope you have a lovely weekend <3

Addiction and Community

HEY!

I found this great article in Finnish, so learn to read people. You can find it HERE.

Back to work, peace out <3

Brunching with the Girls

Last Weekend at the Hospital

Gear Grandfather,

Although we met due to sad circumstances I do genuinely feel that there was a lot of caring and love present in the short three days that I could come for.

With all my love, your granddaughter

Back To Reality

After all this time feeling so... Well, FEELING SO! I'm trying to turn that leaf back and get things done efficiently but most importantly fearlessly. Because most importantly one cannot become paralyzed in a new situation. Just imagine how many days I have lost feeling insecure, vulnerable, frail, ugly and so so young. And all of these are true and false at the same time because they have no relevance. It does not matter if I were frail and ugly, what matters is what I do despite of my hindrances. Because everyone has hindrances be it physical or mental. And yet even at this moment earth is moving through space.

Time is but an illusion created by the movement of electromagnetic currents distorted by mass.

Peace out.